Tag: Free Verse

My only aspiration

My only aspiration

In the hustle and bustle of the day
Surrounded by folks and friends
I feel lost, lonely and astray

Drifting off or awaking,
in dreams and reality
My heart’s always aching
and my soul’s always praying
for you…

Suppressing my urges
to talk to you
curbing my craving
to hear you
ignoring my thirst
to meet you
restraining my longing
to be with you
stifling my desire
to touch you
I feel fervent and helpless,
desperate and hopeless
For I expect and demand,
hope and anticipate

Then all of a sudden I seek nothing
Bereft of hopes, wishes or desires
Left with only a soul that aspires
…for your happiness

Then I experience a holy calm
Peace descends on me
like a soft, soothing balm
and a knowing arises
…that we’re never apart
because you live
forever in my heart

© Manoj Khatri

Drifting

Drifting

Drifting like an aimless cloud,
resembling a soft ball of cotton
in the clear, blue sky
Moving
in no specific direction
I feel peaceful

Floating like an unmanned raft
concurring with the currents
of an endless, wild sea
Thinking
no specific thoughts
I feel joyful

Hopping like a beautiful butterfly
from flower to flower
in the garden of love
Smiling
with no specific reason
I feel cheerful

Walking like a goalless vagabond
who has nothing to achieve
in this lovely, long life,
Living
with no specific purpose
I feel blissful

© Manoj Khatri

Emptiness

Emptiness

As I wander alone in life
Wanting to be needed,
needing to be loved
Willing to belong,
longing to be wanted
I see the yawning black sky,
and its never-ending vastness
Mirroring my heart’s emptiness,
concealing its beat’s fastness,
but revealing my soul’s freeness

The universe seems so pointless
Millions of stars shining
for billions of years together,
making a pretty sight
for us to adore at night
But is that their purpose?
To simply adorn the sky
The yawning, black sky
The endless, vast sky
Is it so pointless?
If yes, I wonder why?
Just as I wonder
about the pointlessness
of my life… and cry

© Manoj Khatri

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A million ways

A million ways

-I-
You say
you don’t understand
The way I feel for you
Listen
to my soul’s whispers
You’ll discover
something grand

You say
You can’t believe
That I love you so much
Listen
To my heart’s beats
you’ll fathom
and perceive

You say
you can’t comprehend
Why I love you
Listen
to my irrationality
‘cos all reasons
I transcend

-II-
I don’t know
WHY
But I do know
HOW

I love you
in a million ways

I know it
when I cry
tears of joy
till my eyes
run dry

I know it
when I fly
so high
my soul soars
into the sky

I know it
When I feel
blue
thinking of
a pained you

I know it
when I rejoice
on hearing
your voice

I know it
when I long
to see
that smile on your face
and your inimitable grace
that sparkle in your eyes
in absence of any guise

I know it
when I long
to hear
your laughter
and when I hear it,
Oh! The joy
I feel thereafter

I know it
when it doesn’t matter
What you say
I still feel the same way

I know it
When I pray for you
intense and deep
each day
as I wake up,
each night
as I sleep

I know that
I’ll never run
out of the ways
Even after a million
nights and days

So there, you see,
if you ask me to,
I’ll be able to supply
a million “how’s”
but not a single “why”

~© Manoj Khatri~

Beyond here

Beyond here

Am I afraid of death?
No, I am not
In fact I am eager
for it
to take me away
To the unknown
From where I came
I am eager to cross over
To the other side
Which is my own
Where physical boundaries
Don’t limit me
Where I can love
And be loved
Endlessly
Where no one says
Till death do us part
Because we never part
Where love is not contrived
No meanings are derived
No, I am not afraid of dying
Death is a friend
It will take me
to where I belong
Where no fear exists
Where
I can lie all day long
in the lap of my beloved
And dream without fears
and tears
I don’t fear death
In fact
I fear life
Yes, I am afraid of living
alone, without loving

~© Manoj Khatri~